optimism

Feeling quite optimistic about it all today, although the nerves are there.... Also reminded the college about my difficulties... i've pretty much been given the option of hiding in the guidance office whenever I feel like it. Which I hope to use and abuse at some point hehe

I'm keeping my claddagh open. I'm scared to turn it round again after all I don't want to run straight into another serious relationship after another again. It doesn't end well, makes me feel like more then a bit of a whore AND I'm not wanting to fuck things up.... I waited a long time of this to happen and to be honest I'd like nothing to go wrong

People seem to be behind it but they don't know the full scope.... plus they're as whorish as me.... maybe more so.